A lot of my friends are worried now that they are graduating.  The real world is scary.  I wish I had that luxury.  I was thrown in there about three years ago.  I understand where they are coming from.  I just think that they are so much better prepared for it that I was and they don't realize it.

I had a weird dream last night.  What's even weirder is that I remember it still.  I was in a kitchen, who's I don't know.  Then two guys come in and they are testing me on whether I know the layout of the kitchen.  They ask me how I get to the upper shelves.  I grab a plastic crate, turn it over, and step on it.  They continue to ask me where various items are in the kitchen and I get them.  That's all I remember.

I wonder if it means anything.  I typically believe that dreams have some sort of meaning, but what in the world could this mean?  I've had dreams of me driving off bridges, me falling into the Temple of Doom, at parties, weddings, things like that.  This one is just too weird and seems insignificant. 

Whenever you decide that you want to grow, whenever you decide that you want to go to a new level, all hell will break loose. Everything that can happen will happen, and at the worst possible moment. They call it Murphy’s law. See whenever you decide that you want to go to another vibration It’s like when you get into an airplane, The first thing they tell you to do is to do what? Fasten your seatbelt, because you are going to experience some turbulence when you’re going up. And some of you are already experiencing that turbulence. Don’t be frightened by that. See whenever you decide you want to go to another level, you’ve got to fasten your psychological, your mental, and your spiritual seatbelt, because it’s going to be a while before you experience a comfortable altitude. You’re going to get there. It’s there, but you’ve got to go through this phase here. This is how you grow. This is how you develop. See life is like a roller coaster. Sometimes your up. Sometimes your down. Sometimes things go well and sometimes they don’t go well.

But in the down moments that’s when you discover who you are. During the down moments. See in the prosperous times you put it in your pocket. In the lean times you put it in your heart. And that’s when you discover who you are.

The lecture should have gone better.  I was nervous yet again, which isn't suprising to anyone, because more people fear public speaking than dying, I've heard.  But the intensity of my heart beating, and the unstableness within my muscles is quite a phenomenon that I didn't have a long time ago.  I only recently developed it in the eighth grade.  Prior to that, public speaking was pretty simple and easy for me. 

The brothers have come and told me that my expectations are too high and that my standards are just too critical.  They are right.  But I do that, because I don't want to settle for anything less than the best.  I talked a little about this philosophy in my speech.  Nobody ever rises up to low expectations. 

Tomorrow is a big day for me.  I am going to speak in front of about 500 high school students from various areas of the state that are considered low income and low life chance areas.  Basically, a student from this area isn't expected to do very much in life.  They aren't expected to earn a college degree.  I don't know who has such low expectations though. It sure isn't me. 

My goal is to get one student that is not considering college as a viable option in their future to change their mind.  I only need one, and I'll be satisfied.  I do question though, if they are coming to the UC Davis campus to attend an event like this, then they already have one step up on a student that isn't attending this event.  Maybe I will just be preaching to the choir.  We'll see.  It should be nerve racking as ever.

Another great productive day as usual.  It really is starting to lose its luster.  I'm just spoiled I guess.  It's hard being unproductive.  One has to work pretty hard to be unproductive.  I don't know how to do it.

This quarter has been very relaxed thus far, and honestly, I don't see it getting any worse.  I can't complain though.  In fact, I'll just keep my fingers crossed that it gets better. 

Look out this is me Bobby Roy your Lady Lovin Pinoy.  There were none before me and there will be none after me, therefore that makes me the one and only.  Young and single, and love to mingle, qualified, bonafide and indubitably qualified to bring you satisfaction and a whole lot of action.  Look out now I'm running wild!

"The Reunion" was a blast.  Founding Fathers Oscar, Alberto, and Florencio were all there and getting their swerve on.  The ambience was beautiful, the dinner was great, and the people amazing.  It's always good to reunite with brothers.

Shelly, my escort came and I hope she had a good time.  She knew a lot of the Fresno guys from her undergrad career and so that helped out with me not having to babysit and what not.  I was able to chat and catch up with brothers.  Excluding Alpha chapter, Zeta had the most representation at the formal.

The brothers were spiffy, in colored barongs, and various outfits ranging from the traditional black tuxedo, to the suave, devonaire zoot suit.  Dates were in dresses long and short, from designers Jessica McClintock to Victoria Secret, and from black to gold to silver to the ever daring red.  Everyone looked ravishing to say the least.  There are a few whose outfits I particularly liked, like Diana, Valerie, Grace, and Maria.  Hair-wise, standouts included Danielle and her 39 bobby pins, Valerie Delarmente, Diana, and Vianca.  Grace and style donned the occasion all around.

The after party was rockin' as well and we had freshly grilled oysters and more alcohol.  Always a good combination.  I had some intellectual conversation with a Sheila, who was Aaron's escort, and Alberto, who never ceases to entertain.  Angelo was not standing by the end of the night, and how Mike Dong was still standing just amazes me.

Talking to the bros today, it appears that everyone had a great time.  Rating from 1-10, the average is about a nine.  I would say that it was yet another successful XPO event. 

Almost all ready.  It should be a fun evening. 

It's formal time.

Hmmm

Have you ever wondered what your purpose in the world is?  I have had that question on my mind ever since high school.  I hope I'm here to do something big.  Something that I can be proud beyond my wildest dreams for.

I hope that I'm an instrument.  For a while, I thought I would be as influential as Jesus Christ himself.  I've had to temper my ego a lot.  I still feel very able, yet I feel stagnant.  There is something else I need to do and get ready for.

I don't know what is going to come up for me.  I don't know whether or not it will turn out okay.  I do know that I am willing to face it head on and we'll see what happens from there.