September 7, 2003

  • At Charlene's party, I was talking to a friend, and she mentioned how she could totally see me as a high school teacher.  It is a provocative thought and one that a few of my friends have mentioned to me.  I don't know though.  I've always seen myself as not having the charisma or the wherewithal to be a teacher.  I don't think I could get through to the teenagers of today.  I think I'd end up preaching all the time.  It takes a special individual to teach, and I am not sure I have it.  Would I really be cut out for that?  I don't even know where to start.  I wonder if I could do it.  I don't feel that I am in tune with high school students of today, or that I can really relate.  Maybe I could eventually get to that point, but it's hard work.  What isn't though, right?  I will sit on the idea for a while.  I'm quite flattered by the prospect, especially because of how influential educators can be.


    It definitely is a good feeling to know that other people believe in you.  It is strange however, when they believe in you more than you believe in yourself.  I tell people that another person's opinion of you, doesn't have to be your reality.  I tell people that the only opinion that really matters is your own.  I'm too stubborn to let simple opinions change my own.  I need facts.  I need evidence.  I need truth.  Then, I can change.  Nobody knows me better than me.  That's why I doubt myself so much.