November 7, 2003

  • We're in high gear in Sinag-Tala and things are looking good. Not great, mind you, but good. There is still a lot of room for improvement, but we've also come a long way.
    I've been working on the program for the show, and it's a real treat. All that experience in yearbook with desktop publishing is coming back to me. It's exciting and new, and hopefully, it will be an impressive product when it’s done.

    During one of the rehearsals, Jannae, one of the cast members, came up to me and asked, "Are those your real eyes?" It was quite a flattering statement. I've always been secretly proud of my eyes. However, they have been obscured by the fact that I usually wear corrective lenses. Jannae mentioned that I have "Mexican eyes," which doesn't really tell me anything because I think everyone has their own “indivisual eyes.”

    I’ve also developed a “popcorn love,” “puppy love,” “crush,” or “whatever you want to call it love” for someone in the cast, and I keep on talking myself out of doing anything. I don’t want to put a name out there in an attempt to not blow my cover. I’m trying to be cool, but I constantly catch myself, glancing her way, and just talk to her in general. Yet I talk to her about trivial stuff. Haha. Oh well. Such is the life of Bobby G. Roy. I tell myself that I fear regret more than rejection, yet, when it comes to matters of the heart, I falter. I guess my esteem is not as high as I believe. I shelled out some money for Kings tickets though, and I plan to ask her to go. We’ll see.

    I wrote another article for the Philippine Fiesta newspaper. It was a challenge to everybody to appreciate one another and express their love and appreciation of each other. I used my relationship with my mom as an example. A few people have gotten back to me and told me that the article was touching or made them cry. I know when I read it in the paper, I cried. Lorraine said that it gets easier. It has gotten easier, but it’s still hard.
    Some holidays are coming up and well, they are still hard for me. Everybody has their family to go to and celebrate with, and I, to put it simply, don’t. This part of life, the brotherhood cannot replace. It’s preposterous to ask that of them either. They have their own lives. I am happy that they have their family though. I wouldn’t wish any of what I went or go through on anybody else.

    Chi, moved down to San Diego with his fiancée, Charlene. He’s going to be the first Zeta Chapter brother to get married. They are getting married in April 2005. If anyone wants to go, let me know. I still need a date! It’s a ways away, but believe me, I’m thinking about it.