October 25, 2007

  • There sure is a lot going on.

    I am a victim of bank fraud. Exactly $11,666.00 worth of bank fraud. The bank is going to investigate the situation, but it sure is inconvenient, and I feel like I can not trust anyone.

    I have reached a dip in my life where I have asked, "What did I do to deserve this?"

    This time of the year is a particularly sensitive time for me because my mom's death anniversary is October 18. Every year, I enter into a realm of numbness. It seems to get better with each passing year, but I hope that I never forget.

    My uncle is barely speaking to me, which actually is a bit more relaxing for me. He is not stressing me out with his fatalistic philosophies on the future or his equally fatalistic conspiracy theories.

    Yet I have much to be thankful for. I have a job that I really enjoy and feel productive at, my lola is still around to cherish and love. I have purpose. Otherwise, there would not be a reason for me to be here, wasting space.

    The same wind blows on us all. It is the set of the sail that determines whether or not we reach our destination..If wind is a roadblock, or a challenge, then we can set our sails differently to control the wind to push us toward out goal.